Kevin Hutchinson

541 Days Road, Kingston, ON K7M3R8, CA

The Reclamation Project: The Value of Living Life at the Helm

Stories of life in an institution and the voices that closed them

Kevin Hutchinson

To you, from Kevin Hutchinson, Sunday, March 15, 1992

Being in a C.T.O. is not the best place to go. It gives people pain being in restrain. You feel kind of doom being in a quiet room. It cuts peoples’ pressure down to length being in 4 point restrength. It gives people a very bad riot being in a room that is quiet. People feel sick in the head being tied in bed. You don’t feel like a lark but feel like a shark being in a room in the dark. It isn’t much fun any more being tied in bed on the floor. There isn’t much pace in a place where there isn’t a lot of space. You don’t have much friends being tied at all 4 ends. You don’t get to play with the other girls and boys being in a room where at first you make a lot of noise. You don’t get to pick up the beats and sweets being tied to your sheets. I swore you would let out a very big roar being locked behind a door. It isn’t neat or sweet and you can’t pick up the beat being tied in bed to your hands and your feet. I say it might not be quite bright and right and might give people a fright and leave them out of sight being in a room that doesn’t have much light and feels like the night or being tied in bed too tight. It isn’t very grand being tied in bed to more than one foot and hand. You feel like a bear when you are in a room where there isn’t much air and you aren’t there to share. You feel very mad when someone does this word to you and this word is snoot being tied in bed to more than one hand and foot. It doesn’t get you any where being tied to a chair. It isn’t funny Nelly being tied on your belly. You can’t eat when you aren’t standing or sitting in a seat. You aren’t in a very good mood when you can’t have food. It isn’t funny Jack being tied on your back and you can’t have a snack. It feels like a wreck giving people nocteck. You should know Joe that it isn’t funny and you don’t get a pay and you don’t feel gay when you are in a room and tied to a bed or a chair for the day and I hope you do as I say. It isn’t fair and you don’t get to go no where and people don’t care and you can’t move a hair and you can’t be part of the pair when you are locked in a room or tied to a bed or a chair I swear and I dare. You don’t get to go very far and you can’t go for a ride in a car and you can’t be a star when you are tied to a bed or a chair or locked behind a bar. Kids feel like a tiger which is a mean cat or a mean rat and they can’t swing a bat and they lie flat and it is a tit for tat and they can’t wear a hat when they are tied to a chair or a bed or locked in a room or held to the mat, Pat. You would have a very big war being tied to a bed or a chair or held to the floor or locked behind a door. Hey Fred, you should do what I said and stop having people held to the mat and tied to a chair and locked behind a door and giving people nocteck and tied in bed. You can’t feel the joys when you can’t play with games and toys.

You feel the shames when you can’t play with toys and games. It is no place to be and you don’t get a fee and nobody can play with me and you can’t play with a she or a he and you might do this to the bed, chair, or floor and the word is pee and you can’t drink tea and you can’t watch T.V. You see, gee Lee. You would feel like a jerk and on your face you would have a smirk and you wouldn’t be able to go to work. You would be in an awful big mess I guess and girls couldn’t get up or out and put on a dress and boys couldn’t play chess.

You would feel like a brat and you couldn’t go and see a hippo that is fat. You would feel like a snot and you wouldn’t learn a lot. You would feel like a fart and you wouldn’t do art and push a cart and throw a dart and you would have a very sad and sore heart and you wouldn’t go to the mart and take part and eat a tart and it isn’t smart. It would hurt, Bert. It would make you twitch and you couldn’t get to your itch and pitch. It wouldn’t be nice and you couldn’t have pop and ice and throw the dice and it isn’t a good way to pay the price especially twice. It isn’t good and I don’t think you should and you wouldn’t do that to the people in your neighbourhood. It is a very bad place to be or go and you wouldn’t be able to make a bow and instead of saying ho, ho, ho, you would say no, no, no and you wouldn’t be able to mow and sit in a row at the show and do your exercises and touch your toe I hope you know. This has got to come to a stop because if it didn’t you wouldn’t be able to shop and drink pop. I hope you do the best you can and start acting like a lady and a man. I hope what I write is what you do because you wouldn’t want this to happen to you, Sue. If this were to happen to you staff I bet you wouldn’t laugh. I hope this is a ………. I will Jill because if you were in this kind of trouble you wouldn’t be able to go to work and make a very big bill. I hope you will do this and I know that you will, Bill, because if this were to happen to you it would be hard for you to take your pill. This would be such a dandy Sandy, if you were mighty handy. I have a hunch you will be kind just like the Brady Bunch and get along all the time including at lunch and brunch. I know that you can because if this were to happen to you this is what you wouldn’t be able to do and that is go for a ride in the van. I wish you luck because if this were to happen to you this is what you wouldn’t do and that is go for a ride in a truck because you would be stuck. If this were to happen to you it wouldn’t be pretty and you would never be able to leave the city. If you were locked in a room or tied to a chair or a bed or held down on your face you would have a frown and you would never be able to leave the town and girls could never wear a gown and boys could never see a clown. If you were so kind I won’t mind. I don’t want you to be dumb because you would never do this to your dad and your mom. It would be the pits and you wouldn’t be able to eat Bites and Bits and make those hits. You would feel like a twit and you wouldn’t like it one bit and you wouldn’t be able to sit and knit and you would have a fit and you wouldn’t be able to put on your mitt and you would have a snit. I don’t think this is something you would like because you couldn’t ride your bike or trike and take a hike, Spike. I don’t think this is something you love because you wouldn’t feel like a dove and you can’t do any of the above.

This is something bad and it would make you mad and sad and not glad and you couldn’t write on a pad and I say this is something that had never happened to your mom and dad. If you were tied to a chair or bed or held to the mat or locked in a room you would huff and puff and you couldn’t do any of this stuff and I say enough is enough. It isn’t great and I know this is something you would hate because if this were to happen to you this is what you wouldn’t be able to do and that is walk through the gate in a line that is straight where your mate had to wait and wait before going out on a date because it was too late and you couldn’t go out and fish if you didn’t get up or out and get the bait. I know that if you were tied to a chair or a bed or locked in a room you would shout and move about and pout before you got up or out and took the route to get the trout. It isn’t silly Willy, because if this were to happen to you this is what you wouldn’t be able to do and that is drink and eat stuff that is chilly and go out with Billy. You would never do these to a her or a him, Jim, because if you did they would never go for a swim or a trim. You could never do this Chris, and I hope this is something you don’t miss. If this were to happen to you this is what you would do which is sit or lie and cry and have tears coming out of more than one eye and I hope you know why wise guy. How much do you want to make a bet if this were to happen to you this is what you would do and that is sweat and get wet. I hope everybody knows it is no good being held to the floor or tied to the bed or a chair or locked behind a door with stinky and dirty clothes. I hope you don’t do this, Kim or Tim, because if this were to happen to you this is what you couldn’t do and that is fill your cup to the rim with Brim. I hope everybody knows it and show and that is the way it goes. I hope you know it and show it and don’t blow it. I hope you have known it and shown it. If you were tied to a chair or a bed you have very big blisters and you wouldn’t do this to your brothers and sisters. You wouldn’t do this to your mothers and brothers so why do it to all the others. This would bother all the others as much as it would bother your father. This is something I hope everybody knows and shows because if you were held to the floor or tied to a bed or a chair or locked behind a door you couldn’t get up or out and blow your nose. This is something you shouldn’t do to all the others and you should stop it if you don’t do it to your brothers and mothers.

If people are bad you should sit down and do some talking rather than give off electric shocking. I hope you ought to have thought of what I have taught and know all of the above are a do not. I hope you do what you should and I knew that you would. I hope you don’t do what you shouldn’t and I knew that you wouldn’t. I hope you do as you are told and be kind to all the people young and old and if you do my heart will be as pure as gold. If you do it will give me great pleasure and my heart will be as great as treasure. I hope you do what I did and stop being mean as a goat which was a kid. I hope you don’t do this on your job, Rob and Bob, because if this were to happen to you this is what you would feel like and that is a snob. I hope you don’t do this to a him or a her and you won’t I am sure, but I hope you are kind just like a cat that likes to purr. I hope you can feel so cool because if this were to happen to you this is what you wouldn’t be able to do and that is play pool, sew with thread from a spool, sit on a stool, and go to school and this is something that would be done only by a fool. I hope you can be as nice as a lamb, Sam, because if you didn’t then this is what would happen to you and that is you would be in a very big jam and you wouldn’t be able to eat ham or yam or see a beaver make a dam or use Pam. I hope you don’t do this no matter where you are at because if this were to happen to you this is what you would feel like and that is a brat. If this were to happen to you this is what you would feel like and that is a punk and this is all a hunk of junk and everybody would walk away from you as if you were a skunk. You would never want anybody to do this to you and that would be grab because if they did they would be a crab and you would never go for a ride in a cab or visit a lab. If people did this to you they would be as mean as a goat and you would never go out and float on a boat in a moat after you put on your coat and I hope you have known from this note I wrote. I hope you use your brain because if this were to happen to you this is what you wouldn’t be able to do and that is ride in a plane or in a train. If this were to happen to you this is what you would do and that is put up a fuss and you would never go for a ride in the bus and I hope this is a lesson, Gus. I know this and I know you know this that this letter I had to write is out of sight. I hope you know that this isn’t funny because if this were to happen to you this is what you wouldn’t be able to do and that is go out with your honey and see a bunny when it is sunny. I hope you get into the habit and be as gentle as a rabbit.